I wrote a crossbyte the other day. It was, "If you know you need help and you don't ask for it, you are not being strong, you are being stupid." I don't know where I would be today had I not asked for help from a counselor at Valley Spring's Youth Ranch. Bless Mary Campbell's heart. I would likely be dead or institutionalized or be one of those whose lives have been completely destroyed by full-blown bipolar disorder. I caught it before it was too late. I know people who suffer from mental illness and anxiety disorders, but will not get the help they need. I don't know if our country will ever get past that, you're not ill, you just need to buck up mentality when it comes to mental illness. Mental illness is a biological, chemical disorder that can be treated as an illness. It's sad that some people are too afraid or too ashamed to seek the help they need. I think what also happens is that mentally ill people lose track of what is actually normal, and they don't realize that what they are feeling is not in any way, shape or form, normal.
I can report on a few things that have changed since the last time I have done one of these. I have lost quite a bit of weight, 25 pounds to be exact. I have firmed up and actually gotten a few muscles though I am still far from my overall goal of weight loss. I still have a weakness for sweets. Last time I had my blood drawn my sugar was borderline, so I really need to watch what I eat. I want to lost another 20 pounds if I can. I will be happy if I can do that.
I am proud to say that the St. Louis Cardinals are in the World Series again, this time against the Red Sox. This series could go either way easily. The Cardinals will have Craig Allen back. I think they will win in six games. I do NOT believe there will be any chance of the Red Sox sweeping the Cardinals again. I may eat those words but I just don't think it's possible. We are better than we were in 06 and the Red Sox are not as good. They're still a great team and they may thrash us. We will just have to see. In football, Rams quarterback, Sam Bradford is out for the season with a torn ACL. This season will not be pretty for the Ram unless another Kurt Warner can arise from the ashes of obscurity.
I have done a lot of writing since the last time I blogged. I started working with elance.com, and I have actually written several pieces: a speech, about seven short stories, and a novella. I am making some extra money with it. I completed a screenplay and am working on another. I don't know what I'm going to do with the first one. I would like to put it on inktip, but right now, money is a little tight. I financed a new apple computer, so I am saving all I make to pay it off.
Lately, I have felt restless, depresses, and anxious. I feel as if I have so much that I have to do that I never have time to do what I want to do. Lots of thing have gotten me depressed. One of our cats had to be put down today. We have had her for years. That was sad, but there are worse things going on that I won't go into. I'll just hang in there. School is getting to me too. It always does this time of year. Well, I am going to bring this to a close, and after I can find a really pretty picture of fall foliage, I will post it.
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